SICK

Quick update.

The concert went like this.....

Left at 7:30pm.....doors were supposed to open at 8pm.

SUPPOSED to open at seven but they were delayed.......

The one day it was SHIT ASS MUTHERFUCKING weather.

It was grey ass shit and fucking raining....not hard BUT when you stand in the wind and rain for over an hour in a hoodie......

NOT impressed....

They took FOREVER to open the doors and get everyone in.

I almost walked back home and said fuck this shit, it's not worth it.

BUT we finally made it in.

Thank god I had my tall boys with me, cause people were pissed off, pushy and cutting in line as I stood in my soaked ass clothes.

I was freezing let alone the hoochie ass BITCHES who thought they could cut in line cause they dressed like whores and didn't wanna wait. HA

I don't think so.

The security lady gave me a squeeze and let us in first HAHAHAHA

We found our section, waited in line more....

and finally got to our seats.

They weren't even done setting up the stage yet fml

I was just glad to sit and be out of the rain.

Some crazy punk bitch opened but only did one song from her set because they were so behind.

Mix Master Mike and Travis Barker did their set. It was awesome.

Barker can fucking hammer those drums.

he's hot

mmmm

I thought to myself in line holy FAKKKKKKK

this better be worth my time, i was angered.lol

Lil Wayne was FUCKING SIIIIIIIIIIICKKKKKKK!!!!!.

It was so worth it, he looked exactly how I thought he would, he was great live and the show blew my mind.

Nicki Minaj was SICCKKERRRR!!!!

I love her

My heart is still beating fast. She was great live and did the songs I wanted to hear.

We fucked off around midnight cause I wanted to beat all the drunk ass people on the way home.

lol

It was a great time, totally impressed with the show.

Lil Wayne is gonna have my babies hahah

Today I've been binging :(

I haven't had a binge day in months.......I felt bad today horrible so I ate.

Don't ask why I just did.

Well so much for a quickie lol

xox

N.

p.s. i'll post pics asap they are not the greatest but meh lol <3

Please take me away

Told you when I get my hopes up they come crashing down.

Typical.

Easter went ok...binged on some chocolate Sunday night because I couldn't say no anymore.

FAT

Monday, Tuesday did yoga laundry worked out went for countless walks.

I thought it would be safe to weigh this am.

Alas I am still the same. Not even down .5

The fucking same.

Arg, frustrating.

I will stay strong and pray it goes down tomorrow.

I'm not busting my ass for fun here.

Tomorrow is Lil Wayne, I hope I'm not to fat to go.

I'm vuuury excited though.

My gf is gonna come with me, she has weed. haha

It better be a bitchin' good time.

I've been on PT more lately but realize why I'm not there more often muhah yay for blogs.

I'm still in shock from the stupid numbers.......I won't ramble away my pathetic thoughts anymore.

Birthday is still soon but no one seems to give a fuck, not even my family.

Surprised, you ask?

Not really, I'm used to my life being filled of disappointment.

Expect the worst, so when it happens, it's has less of an impact.

Stay strong

N.

Yup...

Morning lovelies.

So yah I ate last night...binged I guess.....had some chocolate, couldn't say no anymore. Yah I know fat gross blah ew but honestly, I'm glad it's outta my system, barely any chocolate left due to the fact I didn't buy much and my 3 year old has devoured alot of it. Yah didn't weigh but took my lax tea last night. I feel ok, it's odd but I'm staying positive.

That's my new top :):)

It's not something I would but right away but hubby really liked it so I thought why not. It's peasanty and girly just like me :) It's a bit shorter than all my tops but look no more muffin top so I don't have to worry I guess. I like how the back is lower too :)

Ignore my pajama pants bahaha Your lucky I have pants on at all

bahaha

I also got new sunglasses woot woot.

CJ~ thank you for your last comment, seems just like nothing will ever be good enough but I'm blessed to have you and I can't believe Ive actually inspired someone, your post made me smile xoxoxoxo

I have another follower!?!!?!? Get the fuck outta here, haha WELCOME!!!

I feel loved haha

Mondays suck balls but I feel ok, having some java, should probably do some laundry.......make some buns for hubby's lunch, supper and then thank god for our walk after supper :)

Maybe I could even squeeze some yoga in <3

I'm throwing all my good vibes out there to all of you, cause you all deserve to be happy.

Yesterday was different, but today is good, it's odd but I'm going with it.

Stay strong lovelies

xoxoxo

Nikki

P.s. Lil Wayne, Nicki Minaj THIS Thursday...sorry Gracey.....I'll take pics tho!!

P.p.s - My birthday is in 12 days.

Easter Kester

I detest Easter and praise that its almost finally over with.

The chocolate, the candy, the food, the temptation.

I fucking hate it.

Lately Ive had good control only one binge within two weeks, the numbers are good.

Kinda mad i weighed the same this am.

went for a hard 2 hour walk today and i carried the baby so I hope that helped.

Hubby made pizza, but homemade whole wheat dough a bit of ham veggies and low fat cheese n I only had one slice and a big salad so lets hope for the best.

I want to be down so bad tomorrow but I have been thinking....

Well not thinking more like the voices in my head are telling me to do bad things.

I've restricted so bad lately I wanna binge hard.

It's Easter, have some chocolates, have a few things.....but I'm not dumb. I know it wont end there.

Then after realizing what I have done, I'll hate myself even more

Maybe that's why I'm bitchy I wanna eat but i wanna lose

fuck this shit

I'm so up in the air like well i ate so little yesterday but stayed the same. so almost like well i mine as well eat.....my brain is in shambles...i hate this.

but i love it so much

i don't know what to do or what I'm going to do :'(

my mind takes me over

i don't get the luck

 like a four leaf clover

wondering if i'll get stuck

or just end it and it will be over

no more mind fuck.

I'm so lost right now.

scared of what I might do

excuses excuses excuses

 I feel like a nothing of a person

no soul

no path but ana <3

My Only friend.......

N.

TEENS!!

Miranda Kerr <3 So Lovely

So happy Easter weekend, I was terrified because of the stupid chocolate and food related SHIT!!!.

I weighed this am.

I've been busting my ass lately and it's been paying off!

118.5lbs

I jumped up and down like a little kid on Christmas morning who got everything and more than she wanted.

I haven't been this low in over 5 years!!!!! I'm so proud I did it. I thought I'd get stuck around 120 like before but nope. Staying strong.

I almost binged the other night. On stupid Easter chocolate eggs.

It's because I went n saw my friend one night and we smoked weed.

It was so nice but It's what fuelled my binges 100%

Now I have been binge free for probably over two weeks and it blows me away. I had a slip up last Friday  (not yesterday last Friday),

but since then Ive been good. I've been eating more healthy during the day like fruit, almonds yogurts etc and it's been helping cause I haven't gained.

I craved teens so bad it made my mouth water and made me horny LMAO

that's right.

I was 120 yesterday and I didn't even see 119, what a treat.

Hubby n I went to the mall today, got 2 new pairs of sunglasses and a new top, ill post a pic when I have some more time later.

We have a birthday party to go to today for a friend of mines little boy, hes turning two.

Kids birthday=cake, hot dogs and not safe food.

So I'm a bit anxious but I'm planning not eating at the party at all. It's at 4 so I'm gonna eat before I leave. I refuse to eat unsafe foods and I made it clear I am having zero birthday cake. I will have veggies if they are out but that's it, Haven't had anytime today to workout or yoga but we walked the mall and my cal intake is low.

Wish me luck but my weight this morning will keep me strong!

Tomorrow I don't think were going swimming but we will go for a walk.....Hubby wants sorry IS making pizza tomorrow. He's gonna make dough so homemade but it's still pizza, fml. If I don't eat it shit will hit the fan. Meh we shall see.

I'm wondering if I should weigh tomorrow morning or weight hahaha until Monday. we shall see.

I love you my lovelies <3

Stay strong

mama nikki is thinking of you all

xoxoxoxoxoxox

WHAT THE FUCK

Black seems to be fitting for today even tho the sun shines and beats its rays on me like cancer.

The title says it all.

I weighed this am.

what

the

fuck

:'(

I was hoping for teens. I'm so fucking close I can taste it.

I want it so bad. SO bad.

Still 122.

Aunt flo isn't 100% gone....that better be why.

I've been fucking bustin' my ass working out, doing yoga, walking tons eating very little.

So what the FUCKKKKKKKK.

Honestly, I hate to say this, but I think I need to be in taking more calories.

More small healthy things during the day.

uhgggggg

I know I haven't fucked up tho binge wise I have been good with eating and not binging so in a way I'm not so mad at myself.

I'm not giving up.

I haven't seen teens since before kids so over 4 years ago.

So yeah, I want this bad

and I'm gonna get it.

Damn I rant alot.

I don't care.

Don't like don't read

Ive been keeping up with all your blogs lately and commenting when I have something witty to say.

I welcome all my new followers and I praise the ones I have

CJ- your my rock, you know this, I love you long time.

Gabby- your my baby!!! haha fuck monkeys stay strong girl...11 days??

Gracey- Im glad u got bak on the wagon stay stronnnnngggg!!!!

AS- OMG ITS 420 AND I QUIT SMOKING WEED hahaha

WHAT THE FUCK hahahaha

K.- I'm so glad to have you back honey, I can actually talk to you and you understand....so glad that babies out of you now, stay strong and be patient...I'm always here for you.

everyone else i love you but I'm bad with remembering things haha

my badd

 <3 IT'S 4/20 TODAY!!!!!! <3

 I have zero weed and "quit"

bahahaha

time for another.......

what he fuck moment haha

My girl smoked me up yesterday....LOVE YOU....and possibly today if I can get away sans kids.

I'm not getting my hopes up tho like I did with my weigh in this morning because everything just came crashing down.

I should have known, that's what happens all the time when I get my hopes up.

Life says NOPE.

Fail.

Today I'm gonna tidy this house, go to the bank, hopefully yoga, then our walk after supper :)

Lets hope it goes alright lol

Love you all xoxooxx

NiKkI

Say what? what

Hey lovers

short post

Aunt flo is almost gone

was gonna weigh this am but I'm gonna wait til tomorrow morning and hope for the best!!!

Yesterday rents took me for lunch but it went well, did yoga and went for over an hour walk.

Didn't smoke weed at all....doing ok....still withdrawin a bit but i find shit to do.

OMG 2 new followers in like 2 days?

WELCOME!!!!!

going out with my friend again today to walk the mall, she needs shoes.

I like leaving the house.

SHES MY BESTIE!!!!!! <3 XOXOXOX

mmmmmmaybe I can find something for myself

I mean what?

I feel bony today.......it's odd but good, I'm glad I'm getting out too.

I always have so much to say then I get here and I go blank

damn

I'm thinking of every one of you

xoxoxox

stay strong

Mama Niks

Evening, thought id update quick.
Had a good day, went shopping walked around, ate very little.
overall good day
yogurt (35)
almonds (50)
Salad with tons of veggies n chicken breast-180 max/?
so far so good
I'm excited for tomorrows weigh nervous but excited
Ive done my best
went for a walk after supper again too over an hour
bed soon, got my greenn tea <3
Dream thin my lovelies
N.

NIHT

Happy Monday my lovelies.

I hope your weekend was acceptable lol.

8 days binge free.

I can't believe it.

I kinda binged last night, I didn't eat healthy so i call it that but should I have to restart my binge days? I ate a pancake and 2 granola bars :(

Aunt flo is still here and last time I weighed I was 122, I'm still hoping for teens this week. I will not binge and exercise as much as i can.

I want to see teens when Aunt flo bloody leaves hahaha

no pun intended but it's still funny.

http://thinspo.pink-pistol.net/index.php

this thinspo page makes me horny

hahah good pics

But the weekend was pretty good

saw my boys Saturday night

smoked weed

realized how much it is a trigger for me to binge

I wanna smoke so bad but then i do

and i regret it sooooo bad

cause the binge urge kicks in hard

I think I've been doing well because of not smoking

but it's so harrrrrddddddddddddddd

Fuck you addictions

lol

went swimming yesterday woop woop exercise

except for my ugly body in a swim suit

haha hey i wasn't the worst there.

been doing yoga...seem to be getting more flexy

woop woop

uhm

i cant think anymore right now lol

my parents are coming over with gifts from there mini road trip.

woop woop

better fix my hair

more later bitches

stay strong!!!!!

10 ten days til my lil wayne n nicki minaj concert

19 days til my buuuurrrfday!!!!

Madd love to all

Nikki xxx

I am currently addicted to suicide girls.

I have tattys and piercings, maybe i could be one...hahaha yeah fucking right.

But it would be cool

uhm my weight loss is going so well!!!

I have zero urge to binge.

I think it's the not smoking pot.

I have far more energy but trust me I'm still hurtin' from time to time.

but more energy=more exercise.

I weighed in at 122.0 yesterday.

 down 7 pounds from Monday. no lies. I'm still in shock.

Haven't binged in 6 days, I haven't made a week in years....I'm excited.

Ya quit pot feels good but ill take when offered hahaha

weed=binging=bad=fat

so I rather chose not to smoke.

Nights are the worst n my friend and I smoked during the day so it was all good.

Uhmk hubby had to work today but that's ok, i think I'm meeting him after work and we may go to the mall :)

we went for our walk last night.

thank god for my pink camo gumboots

haha yah that's right

kids section at superstore bahahah

did yoga yesterday too 50 mins of advanced

OHHH ya.

Woke up this morning to a surprise.

Aunt flo

I FUCKING HATE YOU WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING.

WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE!!!?!?!?

FUCK OFF, PLEASE AND THANKS.

yea  to much info ahead but don't  read if u get grossed

woke up with blood on the bed trickling down my leg and all over the floor my legs and hands. good fucking morning. I lost it, almost had an anxiety attack, hubby told me to chill this is normal, yah normal to maybe a NORMAL person....not me...it throws me off track so bad every single time.

BUT

not this time, I'm not ruining my progress cuz of her

i decided I'm not weighing til Monday so i get a surprise but now I'm thinking should i just wait til flo leaves?? omg i don't know but i wont give up this easy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha i took three Midols this morning.....i should but the extra jumbo case load.

I'm already a bitch

Quit smoking so I'm bitchier

and now this.

Clear the way people.

OK lets talk about something else

WEEZY in two weeks

gracey i wish i could bring you!!!!

Then my birthday is May 7th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ive been thinking of birthday ideas here is what i have

1. Money or gift certs for Victorias secret ( I would wear the pink line everyday for the rest of my life)

2. Phones by Dr. Dre, i thought my skull candies were nice until i tried these in a store.

these ones made me cream in my pants a bit. I need them....but there 200 bones. ( love u mommy daddy)

3. New piercing or tatty.

The new piercing i dunno what i should get, i have Munroe i was thinking my lip opposite of it, i had my nose meh, belly button twice, eyebrow, i want something nice but different.

Thoughts?

i think those are top three.

I'm old

fawk

I've run out of rants for now lol

have a good weekend lovers

stay strong

momma Niks



Three

This is prob my top ten thinspos I love.

Her ribs. Her hips.

The message.

The hello kitty necklace?

mmmmm

IT'S HUMP DAY

I wish i had a good pic for that haha damn.

Today is day number THREE of no binging and being back on track.

It feels AMAZING. I have Miss CJ to thank for that, you keep me strong.

You all do.

I started off the week weighing in at 129 :(

BUTTTT

yesterdays weigh was shocking

126

down three pounds?

Get the fuck outta here hahaha I'll take it THANK YOUUU

I've been walking doing yoga and being super busy lately.

It keeps my mind off of things and burns calories!!

Went n saw my friend whho just had a baby yesterday, baked her some fresh bread and went to visit.

after the whole fam damily went up to the mall walked around alot, hubby n my oldest had lunch I had butter pecan coffee omg orgasm.

but we walked that mall good

Came home had supper then went for our after supper family walk.

haha writing this i realize how "normal" we sound hahaha i hate it.

weighed this am

124.5

lowest YET!!!!

I feel so strong an inspired, back on track :)

I can't seem to stop freezing lately tho. brrr

Today I'm gonna stay in for a bit n do some much needed laundry and some cleaning around the house.

Cook supper...maybe some bread....then off for our walk again

Yesterday was my first day of absolutely no smoking

Monday night i kinda flipped so I found resin n left overs that I could and smoked.

It felt good but at the same time I feel like i failed cuz i caved into smoking

But yesterday seemed better...i was only 90% bitch

Doubling up my anxiety meds helps :P

To keep my motivation going.....I'm pulling out my skinny jeans.

The ones I wore at my lowest weight (99)

Their not a zero their a size three but they were baggy and it's the size 3 a 7 year old would fit into lol

I go thru clotbhes like mad but Ive managed to keep these.

I'm excited.

Stay strong all

loves from mama Nikki

Morning Monday

I hope you all had a great weekend :)

Lots of things have happened are going to happen soon so I thought I would share with my favs

Ok...we smoke weed, chronically for prob 5 years on and off.

I quit while I was preg etc, but we never quit quit.

We can hardly afford it but it had become a necessity here.

Things have been rough in the past few weeks and hubby and I need change.

Change can be terrifying or exciting.

I'm both.

Hubby might be getting a job with my dad up north soon. Sent his resume off and were hoping for the best.

My dad is a supervisor up there and he has lotsa friends and pull with alot of people.

He would be making DOUBLE what he makes now.

It would be either 2 weeks on and one week off

or 2 weeks and 2 weeks.

We really haven't been apart from each other that long ever.

But I'm thinking maybe if we don't see each other every single day, we wont want to kill each other in our sleep. haha no joke actually lol

We wouldn't be struggling with money anymore and we could get a new house probably in under a year. A new house bigger newer :)

A fresh start :)

I'm excited and I don't believe in god but I'm praying this works out for the best.

We need change badly.

So today's my first day not smoking, hubby quit last Thursday to get a head start, today is my first day.  I am nervous BUT instead of smoking were all going for a walk everyday this week after he comes home from work so it keeps us busy and not thinking about smoking and it's family time aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand exercise!!!! oh and ya no more munchies.

There are more positive than negatives

it's motivating.

I'm excited to do some yoga then go for walks :))

We will be happier, healthier and skinnier and maybe a bit richer

I'm stoked

not gonna lie

<3

Hubby and I spent a much needed night out on Saturday night. My rents watched BOTH kids lol and we rented a suite for the night. king size bed n jacuzzi tub mmmmm

the hotel room was like an apartment, I have never seen a tub, shower or bathroom that big ever.

We took a cab to west ed mall, wandered around had a nice supper with the cutest waitress ever.

it was nice sitting in the bar with no kids and getting drunk lol

I got a new blue gem for my Munroe, couldn't convince hubby to get another piercing but soon. If he gets that job I'm gonna get another tatty <3

It's sunny today

I didn't binge for the first time last night since i cant even remember.

I weighed this morn too, it's been weeks.

129

still.

But it will get me back on track and focused if i weigh more often now. I've slacked enough!!

Time to get on it :)

Yoga and walks and tea and no binging should equal pounds buh bye.

staying positive!!!!

Today I may go up to the mall just to wander around, id go for a walk but were going later, i shall do some yoga, i miss it and how great it makes me feel

wow this was long haha

KIA- omg your nomination has me glowinnnngggg haha

Cj- boys suck.....i love u still

I can fly n shit i will give u my email in a comment, your art interests me, haha and i so will tell my hubby's there is a death ray waiting!!! hahaah

Stay strong everyone

I'm thinking of you all :)

ill post more later if i have time and or remember lmao

STAY SKINNY

Nikki

<3



Thoughts n what not

Hey

I honestly have nothing to say for myself other than failure.

total and utterly completely failed myself and others.

I'll try not to loathe myself to much in this post.......

Things lately haven't been to too bad....the weather has been alot nicer and it actually feels like spring. spring clothes blue skies.

It's an anti depressant at it's best, I felt great, cute clotbhes.

But i failed my goal bad, I havent weighed cause im to terrified to and my expectations of myself are way to high and I dont need another disapointment..

My clothes feel ok but thats not good enough, if I kmeep binging they won't ack and my birthday and summer omg......anxiety builds in me  like fire feeds off of air

Luckily I have pills for that, If i take more than I should I get high

*insert smirky face here*

I wish I could be numb and high all the time

On a totally unrelated Ana note......my hubby m,ay be getting a new job up north.

As in will be working 2 weeks on 1 week home or whatever but the money would almost double and were looking at buying a new place as soon as we can out of the city :D

Probably end of this year.

But were so excited, a change is needed so so soooo badly, and maybe we wouldnt wanna kill each other if hes noit home 24/7

my dad would be getting him the job.

I hope it doesnt fall through.......because ive been thinking if it does, then what? things cant stay the way they are anymore.

I'm scared he's gonna fail his drug test, hes quit smoking and it going to do a detox but he is HELLA bitchy cause we smoke so much. we just picked up like 2 nights ago so its not like we dont have much left anhyways.

and i depend on smoking really bad, sorry hubby but im gonna smoke until this is gone. hes not too impressed about it, but i dont care, and he needs to stop taking out his withdrawls on me, or im gonna lose my shit.......again.....yea.

It doesnt even feel like friday, but i got gum boots yesterday hahaha yea their pink camo gum boots from the kids section at superstore, i refuse to go for walks in mud in my fly skate shoes with hot pink laces so yah gum boots bitches haha

again i say i will post pics asap i just need to upload them maybe ill do that today cause im a hermit fat and depressed but it's friday i should be happy?

hahaha happy whats that? oh yah sorry i forgot

I MISS ALL OF YOU

glitch that dress is BITCHING your so hot

Cj i love you my french hussy

As hope your well

unbeautiful your SO beautiful

i always forget people

GABBY i miss u and your posts

I can fly n shit..........art you say??? interest me more?

gracey your so sweet i hope your well too

if i missed you bitch at me and ill make it up to you haha

uhm

I hope today is ok, it's friday i dont wanna mope all day but im to ashamed to go out haha fuck me

have a great weekend

stay strong

Nikki

READ THIS!!!!!!

bahaha interested now aren't ya\???????

Hello lovelies <3

I've been so busy lately, but I have been reading even if I have not been commenting :)

Weekend was OK, binged, didn't, binged, didn't.

Thank the universe that is over.

I haven't weighed in forever, but I'm recovering.....I don't want to weigh until I haven't binged in a few and yah not be horridly disapointed.

So the plan is with Miss Cj <3

Three days no binging and at least an hour of physical activity everyday.

No weigh until Thursday eeep, but Ive gone this far, It's only three days right?

RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!

hummmm.....today started out shit

BUT

Went for a hard hour walk, came home cleaned like a mad lady, made supper, made buns, yah it's been a good productive day aaaaand prob only around 200 cals? or more but it's still low

I will not binge tonight cause I didn't walk thru mud with my nice shoes for nothing!!!!

I got some new hot pink laces for my fly sneaks :D

post pics soon.

I keep saying that eh? hahaha

Ehhhhhhhhhhhhh?

hahaha

Hubby had a meeting later after work tonight.

It's hindering my smoking after supper abilities!!!!! Lets home he comes home soon.

At least I didn't have to feed him n I could eat alone.

I've still been doing my Yoga lately and whatever I can whenever I can :)

Better than a kick in the taint

baahhah

LIL' WAYNE AND NICKI MINAJ IN 24 DAYS!!!!!

I'm stoked and hubby wants to come with me now :)

yay

gotta look good for the show right? right.

And my burrfday etc

Ok I'm done boring you now haha

Ill try n post more

xoxoxox

Nikkay

April's Showers-edited

Will bring me May flowers.

I'm excited April is here, I'm so sick of the snow and the gray and the brown. I miss the blue sky, it's absence has darkened my heart. Yesterday was so sunny warm blue sky, it gave me new hope, a new outlook.

April will be my month, the month I snap back and lose and prepare for summer. I can't set back myself any longer and I won't do that to myself anymore.

I finally didn't binge last night i cant remember the last time I didn't binge....gross....all I had yesterday was a 35 cal yogurt.

This is deffo not an april fools joke lol damn kids and there SHINANIGANS oh....wait....I like shinanigans hahaha

I weighed this morn........128.......

I know it's bad but I have to start somewhere.

Today is Friday, I hope something interesting happens today, I'm hoping so.

My birthday is beginning of May.

I decided my gift to myself will be the gift of being thin.

I want to lose alot, but I don't want to set an unreasonable goal so for now I'll just go with it.

It will be the greatest gift ever, I will stay strong.

I appreciate all your comments, life lately is kicking my ass and I'm so lost not knowing what direction to go in or what to do. This is the only place I can collect myself my thoughts and not be judged.

I;m SO greatful and blessed for my friends.

I'd be nothing without you

I wish things were different

Maybe change is for the best?

more later

love you guys

xoxoxox

Niks

You thought u saw the last of me today eh? muhahahaha suckaaaaas
one of my boys came over just as i had gotten the girls ready to head up to the mall cuz its to nice to stay inside and he smoked a fatty with me <3 love HIM LOVE then went to the mall, say ironically in the food court but my oldest ate i had coffee n people watched haha
window shopped, nothing really grabbed me but i didnt wander into stores to much cuz then i woulda spent money, it was nice getting out and walking around
woohoo exercise that isnt torture.
today ive eaten a yogurt-35cals
5 almonds prob 50 calsish
chicken grilled and vaggies
250 or less
I needd to eat or i crazy binge so i will eat small healthy things to prevent binges. i feel better already today from not binging, it gives me hope that i can lose the rest of this mess
bahah
oh and hubby wants to come with me to the concery now!? yah either way im stoked to go.
weezy blunts and bitches hahaha
i hope im down tomorrow :)
I got my music downloader working again woop free music, well not free but cheaper bahaha
hah well this edit was lame
hahaha my bad bitches
i hope you all have an amazing weekend.
Madd love from your mother monster
Nikki