Nothing to lose.......

But my FAT.

Straight up, I've got nothing to lose anymore but weight and my girls.

My girls aren't going anywhere and hopefully this FAT decides to split soon too.

That's up to me tho, uhg.

Haven't gained but haven't lost :(

I need to get on it!!!!!!

ok get ready for fat and I can't believe I'm posting but I need help.

I need to stop binging, I almost fasted yesterday.

then i ate

fuck meeeee

Be honest as you want. I need tough love, this pic was taken prob a week ago i hope i haven't fucking failed so horribly my bones are fading

fuck that

ill never give up

with this at least

life I'm giving up on that tho lol

everythinhg and anything i do is never good enough

so fuck you life why should i try when all you do is rape my up my ass lol

i had one good day got tickets n my hair done.

I knew it wouldn't last.

But I basically told hubby I'm going to this fucking concert i don't care what u do or think.

I'm glad i didn't back down, because i always do to make everyone happy.

fuck that not no more!!!!!!

AS~ I'm glad to know I'm not alone but your so much tinier than me!!!!! lol <3

Glitch~ I miss you!!! and yeah nicki minaj is my queen.

Unbeautiful~ I hope i can stay strong!!

I miss blogging but i feel i don't deserve too.

I'll take a pic of my yoga mat soon as I actually remember.

Lately I love the high on emptiness I get giddy and loopy, it's amazing I love it.

but none the less I am still fat.

My moms coming over today.....at least I'll get out.....she wants to go for lunch fuckity fuck

but then some shopping, retail therapy cures me.

Even tho if I spend money I don't have I'm bound to get some sort of lecture hahaha

meh

mama needs new comfys from vic secret.......I wanna new stud for my Munroe, i want i want i want

i want to be thin

i wish i could buy that shit

OK i must get decent

stay strong

more later

bitches

<3\

XoXo

nikki