Sorry bitches

Sorry lovelies.

Things lately have been......tough, you could say.

I'm currently not at home.

Staying with the rents

Took my girls n left.

don't feel like details.

I've been very suicidal....n i am a bit anti suicide...

but theres no way I'm abandoning my girls

made my mom upset

n my dad

I'm not going anywhere soon tho

i just want the drama to be over, quiet, i give up.

binged alot cuz I'm so depressed

brought my scale but its in the trunk of my car still....

I'm scared but getting back on track

walked today

ate minimal safe foods n no binging

ill weigh soon but when i feel its safeish

i cut my arm worse than i thought.

i never cut where people can see usually on my hips, thighs etc.

cut on top of my forearm closer to my elbow, it split fast and bad and bled alot.

the blade i use is extra sharp n i didn't think it would be easier.

exacto knife

sharp

i don't know how i feel about it

but i can say its a bad scratch....

it was deeper than all my others...

but more satisfying

it hurts like a mofo tho when i forget about it

and i have to cover as i am with my parents atm

meh

fuck you life

i miss you people but things have been so fucked

ill be back

Nikki