Wednesday, November 16, 2011

take my life....but I'm cool with it....

Good evening lovelies
Today was good...i guess?
Still the same weight
one one six
restricted well today
did a 90 min yoga class that kicked my ass and I feel fucking amazing :)
I'm contemplating not weighing in the am and waiting until Friday to maybe see a bigger result?
I'm very conflicted lol
I did well today so i should be down tomorrow right
we shall seeeeeeeeee
I saw my two favorite people today
you knowwww who u are
<3 <3
You keep me strong
uhm took a pic, hope you enjoy
skinny dreams

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Just some useful info

Which Healthy Foods Are Best for Flat Abs?

What are the best foods for firmer abs?
What are the best foods for firmer abs?
What are the best foods for firmer abs?

We've heard the saying "abs are made in the kitchen," but what does that mean? When it feels like you're working out and not seeing the result you want, could it have something to do with your diet? We went to SHAPE diet doctor Mike Roussell to figure if there are certain foods that can help you on your route to firm, toned abs. Here's what he had to say:

The problem is simple: It's very easy to eat a lot of calories, but it's very hard to burn a lot of calories. The popular slogan "abs are made in the kitchen" refers to the fact that what you eat has a far greater impact on weight loss than any form of exercise you do. But despite the popularity of this saying, many people still attempt to uncover their abs with endless crunches and laps around the track.

RELATED: Should I Count Calories or Carbs?

If you're eager to reveal your abs to the world but can't seem to shed that last bit of belly fat, your best strategy is to pay closer attention to your diet. What kinds of foods should you be eating? Regardless of your goal, the foundation of your diet should always be fruits and vegetables, lean protein sources , and a blend of dietary fats. When you're actively trying to lose fat, focus on the type of carbohydrates you're eating-aim for more green, fibrous carbohydrates such as broccoli, Brussels sprouts, cabbage, kale, asparagus, bok choy, and collard greens. These are all cruciferous vegetables and are in the running for the healthiest foods in the world.

It's important to remember that hormones play a big role in weight loss, especially the last five or so pounds that are so hard to lose. Cruciferous vegetables like those mentioned above contain two compounds-indole-3-carbinol and Calcium D-glucarate-that may help optimize estrogen levels, giving you an edge in revealing your abs faster. In addition to these two powerhouses, cruciferous vegetables are low calorie , high fiber, and have a low energy density. This means that you can eat a large quantity of vegetables and feel full and satisfied without consuming a lot of calories--another key for peeling away that final layer of abdominal fat.

RELATED: How Can I Boost My Metabolism?

The bottom line: Multiple factors contribute to storing fat around your belly, but by focusing on eating more green, fibrous veggies, you'll make it easier for your body to reveal the flat abs you've always wanted.

More on SHAPE:
The Top 50 Fall Foods for Weight Loss
My Salad Has How Many Calories!?
The Best Low-Calorie Cocktails for Fall


Good day my lovelies <3
I miss blogging but I think I'll have alot more time to now :)
YAY!!! keeps me motivated, you all keep me motivated.
I've been on PT alot lately too.
I did good yesterday.....and ana rewarded me this morning.
one muther fucking sixteen
one one six
I cant remember the last time the scale told me these numbers.
Its unexplainable how I feel.
My goaL was 115 by friday, it still is but maybe I can surpass that.
I will stay strong!!!!
~~~~~~~~STRONG VIBES~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~SKINNY VIBES~~~~~~~~~~
Take them as needed <3
uhm I moved out of my house and moving into a basment suite with me and my girls, things have been tough but I'm excited to move and get settled.
Im not excited about being farther away from my friends though.
I will make it work, don't worry K doll <3 it's just the beginning <3
CJ stay strong misses, think of our goals n I"M always around to talk, you too K.
uhm thats my exciting news hahaha lame
I'm having a brain fart, i'll post more later
MaMa NiKkI

Sunday, November 13, 2011


Good day my lovelies <3
Didn't binge, still 118..........I will stay focused and down more soon.
Pics today for motivation


skinny dreams await

so this will be short
today was ok i guess, mentally draining
ate lunch puked then napped
had supper stayed busy an the cal count today is low
my last weigh was 117.5
did not weigh today because i was a fat little piggy but today i was good.

p,lease ana/mia i need a boost right now, i hope ive
this is all i seem to have sometimes....

I love you K.
I love you to coco
we can win this shit and be the bad bitches everyone hates cuz there jealous

sweet skinny dreams
Nikki <3

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


Soooo......yay my second post within a few days hahaha. Go me? I miss blogging but at the same time I don't? I dunno. Ive been so crazy busy I havent even picked up my laptop much.
Ive been dealthy ill the past prob 3 weeks, the past week has been the worst of my life.
hubby is away n having 2 sick kids when i can barely get out of bed is not so fun.
With everything else is my life right now being sick is not how I want to be.
|My life u ask, whats going on?
It's such a long fucked up story
but all I'm going to say is im trying to move on with my life and to be happy.
all i seem to be doing is ruining everyone else.
it's so back and forth
My support is great but my main support can't really help when there in JAIL.
fuck sakes
Ive been asking that alot with everything going on like your gonna do that....really??? like whatever
I wish someone would just take my girls so I could be free.
Finally free
No more drama
no more pain
There is a plus side to all this bullshit,
I've gotten down to the weight i was at before,
teens again, im so proud of myself
i fell off track for so long but now im back
the teens taste so good, the bones feel so good

im done ranting i guess

stay strong bitchettes

Sunday, November 6, 2011

it's been a whhhhhile...

Wow, it really has been a while. I wasnt worthy to blog for such a long time n just forgot about it,
My life in the past 4 months have changed and are changing in so many fucked up ways.
nothing in my life has ever been this hard, i wouldnt wish this tortrue on anyone, its hard to stay strong anymore because im so broken
i want this feeling i have to go away
i want the anxiety to float away
my heart was ripped out with a barehand
i thought there was hope
so i went to pick it up, then he stepped on it leaving me with nothing
the only good thing about this situation is i hgave been so stressed and sick with a really bad cold ive lost alotta weight and am back into the teens again i was 119.5 this am <3 i knew i could always count on you ana\mia to make me smile and to always be there for me.

I miss all of your blogs n im gonna catch up on as much as i can
stay strong lovelies

Saturday, August 13, 2011

I wish I had more time to post more often.
Instead of when I feel so alone the only place I have to pour out my soul without judgement or whatever.
I keep saying I don't care anymore.
But I really do still about some things.
Overall though, I just don't care.
I've lost hope, lost sight of whats important........
what even matters anymore...........
What makes me happy?
Oh sorry whats happy?
Happy is being thin, starving, losing weight and gaining bones
I'm still fat
i can't even think straight right now.
I'm sick of everything.
I'm done.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Can you even see..

the pain I am in?
Screaming away,
dying to be thin.
I numb the thoughts,
blades and pills,
you still run through my head,
thinking I'm not ill.
One step two steps,
three steps, four,
you'll always be fat
you dirty filty whore.