WHAT THE FUCK

Black seems to be fitting for today even tho the sun shines and beats its rays on me like cancer.

The title says it all.

I weighed this am.

what

the

fuck

:'(

I was hoping for teens. I'm so fucking close I can taste it.

I want it so bad. SO bad.

Still 122.

Aunt flo isn't 100% gone....that better be why.

I've been fucking bustin' my ass working out, doing yoga, walking tons eating very little.

So what the FUCKKKKKKKK.

Honestly, I hate to say this, but I think I need to be in taking more calories.

More small healthy things during the day.

uhgggggg

I know I haven't fucked up tho binge wise I have been good with eating and not binging so in a way I'm not so mad at myself.

I'm not giving up.

I haven't seen teens since before kids so over 4 years ago.

So yeah, I want this bad

and I'm gonna get it.

Damn I rant alot.

I don't care.

Don't like don't read

Ive been keeping up with all your blogs lately and commenting when I have something witty to say.

I welcome all my new followers and I praise the ones I have

CJ- your my rock, you know this, I love you long time.

Gabby- your my baby!!! haha fuck monkeys stay strong girl...11 days??

Gracey- Im glad u got bak on the wagon stay stronnnnngggg!!!!

AS- OMG ITS 420 AND I QUIT SMOKING WEED hahaha

WHAT THE FUCK hahahaha

K.- I'm so glad to have you back honey, I can actually talk to you and you understand....so glad that babies out of you now, stay strong and be patient...I'm always here for you.

everyone else i love you but I'm bad with remembering things haha

my badd

 <3 IT'S 4/20 TODAY!!!!!! <3

 I have zero weed and "quit"

bahahaha

time for another.......

what he fuck moment haha

My girl smoked me up yesterday....LOVE YOU....and possibly today if I can get away sans kids.

I'm not getting my hopes up tho like I did with my weigh in this morning because everything just came crashing down.

I should have known, that's what happens all the time when I get my hopes up.

Life says NOPE.

Fail.

Today I'm gonna tidy this house, go to the bank, hopefully yoga, then our walk after supper :)

Lets hope it goes alright lol

Love you all xoxooxx

NiKkI