FBE

Free
Body
Expressionist

Free
Bodied
Expressionism

How ever you want to look at it, pronounce it, what you think of it, is all up to you.
Cj <3 Your my teacher! lmao

Anywhoooooo, theres still that boy lurking around in my life.
He's as good as I remember him from when I was wasted.
Damnitt fuck shit fuck
That's not good, this may be a problem.
But it doesn't have to be if I don't make it one right?
I don't know what else to say or if i feel like talking about that anymore.

Today is the service for that sweet girl who was taken away too early from us.
It's not in the town I am in but about 3 hours south as it was her home town.
I don't do death well, been to a funeral once.
I am afraid of death a phobia almost
I don't deal well, but who really does?
I'm sad I can not be there
I hope she see all of us that are thinking of her today.
The skies weep on this sad day which doesn't make this any easier.
The weather is SHIT, it's depressing, can't go for a walk, or to the park with the kids just to get out of the house......
go for drives but that's not as fun and not as much exercise as my fat assery needs
was gonna go to the mall? stroller is soaked.... i could get a cart.......i dunno what i would even buy, it would have to be something tho to make me happy even just for a little.
I can still go out....i should....hello CABIN FEVER.
Fuck a Duck
PT is a crazy drama rama mess
The community is broken and eggshells have been spread
I wondered why I frequented less there
Now I will prob totally avoid that place because of all the stupid high school shit
I'm not 12
which is sad cuz I've met alot of really great people there
some of my closest <3
Blah I need more coffee n a possible plan lol
Stay strong
Niks
p.s. still fat but hoping to reach a goal by thursday. fuck you mom and your candy.
its a waste cause it's going in the trash
why didn't you take it home?
oh because you cant control and would eat the whole bag?
You know i have issues n you still left me with all this SHIT
gah
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