I wish I had more time to post more often.

Instead of when I feel so alone the only place I have to pour out my soul without judgement or whatever.

I keep saying I don't care anymore.

But I really do still about some things.

Overall though, I just don't care.

I've lost hope, lost sight of whats important........

what even matters anymore...........

What makes me happy?

Oh sorry whats happy?

Happy is being thin, starving, losing weight and gaining bones

I'm still fat

i can't even think straight right now.

I'm sick of everything.

I'm done.



Can you even see..

the pain I am in?
Screaming away,
dying to be thin.
I numb the thoughts,
blades and pills,
you still run through my head,
thinking I'm not ill.
One step two steps,
three steps, four,
you'll always be fat
you dirty filty whore.

remember me?

Hey my lovelies
ive been such a stranger but just got back from a much needed vacay.
I came home to a beautiful postcard from i can fly n shit <3
THANK YOUUUU
it was a nice welcome home
I'm extra fat but extra tanned haha
ill post more when i have more time
i miss you all and havent stopped thinking of any of you
stay strong
xox
nikkayyyy